November 30, 2011

A Lesson from Horses & the Process of Cultivating Compassion. ~ Jacey Tramutt

Jacey Tramut

Many of us have heard, “If you are not compassionate with yourself, your ability to be compassionate with others is limited.” For some of us, this may be hard to hear and I get it. I didn’t like hearing it either. In fact, it was the kind of truth that made my stomach churn my breakfast into nauseating hairballs that couldn’t wait to be thrown up. Why?

We think we have all this compassion for the pain of others, when in reality, we don’t. At least not in the true sense of the word. Not having compassion for ourselves is a way of avoiding our own pain. It is also aggressive.

If we cannot fully be present with our own pain, the pain of others will intimidate us.

We will need to shut it down so that the fortress we have built to protect ourselves from our own pain is not threatened.

Chris Moseley

We start building this fortress at a young age. The people that cared for us most likely had emotions that they had no idea what to do with. So they suppressed them, and then suppressed them in us. And every time some experience came along that threatened to un-suppress them, we turned away. We hardened our hearts and strengthened the fortress.

 So, What’s the Problem?

The problem is that we want to be compassionate. It’s in our nature and at the core of who we are. It is also quite possibly the answer to all conflict that arises in the world.

When we are less inwardly aggressive, we are less outwardly aggressive.

We can’t do for others what we can’t do for ourselves. In addition, we are creating an incredible amount of unnecessary suffering for ourselves. As the Dalai Lama says, “We can never obtain peace in the outer world until we make peace with ourselves.”

 A Lesson From the Horses

Today I walked out to the pasture to halter Hermano (my horse) and bring him in for a vet visit, which is not my favorite thing to do. It was cold, I’d forgotten my jacket, and I had no gloves. I was lost in my mind and my thoughts were aggressive. This sucks. I’m cold. Why did you forget your jacket and gloves? Why do the horses have to be out in the pasture today? Why can’t they just be in? The list of thoughts went on…

Then I caught myself. I noticed I was fully engaging my fortress — hardening to my experience, being self-aggressive as well as projecting aggression outward.

Junda JK

So I slowed down my pace, took some conscious breaths and checked in. I felt irritated and tense. That was enough awareness for me to shift my focus.

I began to allow my experience gently.

I felt the cold in my fingertips and cheeks. I relaxed and felt my feet on the ground. I looked around and noticed the clouds in the sky and the horses on the side of the hill. Then an amazing thing happened. Hermano saw me, and he started galloping towards me excitedly. Aubie and the others quickly followed and all the horses came running in to greet me. Hermano walked right up to me and gently placed his nose in the halter.

By allowing myself to be present and compassionate with my actual experience, I opened myself up to having an experience other than a miserable one.

 How Can I Practice Self-Compassion?

To practice self-compassion we need to put our awareness on the energy inside our physical bodies and allow ourselves to feel our experience. This is the beginning of the dismantling the fortress. Our minds want to judge our experience and ourselves. Becoming curious about what happens if I just allow my truth is the first step. We often find resistance at first — and that’s ok. Just start there and feel the resistance.

Life will give us plenty of opportunities to practice every day.

Someone cuts you off in traffic? Practice. Your child is being willfully defiant? Practice. Someone you care about is dying? Practice.

Ask yourself, “How can I open to my experience, rather than shut it down?”

This practice will enable us to cultivate compassion for ourselves and others.

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Jacey Tramutt, MA LPC used to practice self-aggression every minute of every day. Now, instead she practices letting go of self-aggression whenever she is conscious of it and helps others do the same through Equine Facilitated Psychotherapy in Golden, Colo., For more information visit her at www.cultivateconfidence.com.





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