“When you find someone who breaks you open and makes you feel things; you fight for them.” ~Tarryn Fisher
When I say that I want you—it means that I want all of you—each and every part, every moment of heartbreak and every second of bliss.
When I say that I want you it means that I want you here kissing me senseless at midnight.
I want you here with your warm strong arm around me—pulling me closer into your lucid dreams at 2:00 a.m.
I want to be the fanciful reality that you wake up to as the sun stretches across the bed and breaks light into shadows across your beautiful face.
I know that there is an understated bliss that exists within your arms, but this time I am not just after the happy ending—but the journey of a thousand steps that have brought us here to this moment.
When I say that I want you it means that I want the tears that come with loving you—because the truth is, you are the only one to make me cry.
And, while it should seem that is a bitter reality—the fact is—there is a tender delectableness to my tears—they help me understand what I am feeling.
Watching how you make me cry, helps me realize the place you occupy inside my heart.
When I say that I want you it means that that I want to see you tired and ornery—I want to see your eyes heavy and your soul bare, after a day that has tested you to the limits.
I want to see you confused and trapped by your fears.
I want to see all of you—every single part that seems inconsequential to others.
When I say that I want you it means that I want to see you sick—I want to see you laid up with fever so that I might be the one to nurse you back to health with kisses, cool compresses and homemade soup.
Not because I need to take care of someone to feel validated—but simply because you’re the one who I want to take care of.
When I say that I want you it means that I want to see you push past your boundaries and fight your inner battles.
I want to see you make the wrong choices—I want you to push me to my edge—where I choose to run away or to step even closer.
When I say I want you it isn’t because of a fairytale spun sweeter than saccharine—but because of a fate more real than either of us have known.
It’s wanting to wait up for you until the sun begins creating rainbows across the sky—not because I am suspicious or jealous, but simply because my arms and bed were empty without you.
When I say I want you it means that I want to argue with you.
I don’t want you to take it easy on me and I don’t want to bite our tongues and hold back the things that we are longing to say.
No, this time when I say I want you—it means that I want every single part of who you are.
When I say that I want you it means that I want to see you dirty and messy with barbecue sauce dripping down your chin.
I want to smell your intoxicating scent—sweat mixed with the summer craft brew that we enjoy under the stars—secretly wishing for those things we aren’t yet ready to ask for.
When I say that I want you it means that I want to see all those parts of you that you think are your weaknesses—because in reality it’s those parts that I love the most.
When I say that I want you it isn’t because you are my muse—although you are—it is because in learning who you are, I also learn who I am.
Not because I need you to define me—but because I need your presence to un-define everything I thought that I was.
When I say that I want you it’s the desire to share in the crazy chaos of life together. The fast paced comings and goings, the events and get togethers, the tiredness after a long day—because the best ending will always be coming home to you.
When I say that I want you it isn’t because I have this life mapped out precisely as I want it to be—but rather as long as your steps are beside mine, anything is possible.
I don’t know what tomorrow may hold, but I do know that you are the reality that I will choose day after day.
When I say that I want you, it means that I want to see you grow old—an even better version of who you are now. I want to see you make a mess of your life, so that when you rebound into the man that you were born to be—I will be there to see it all.
When I say that I want you—it simply means that my heart is already yours.
When I look into your eyes and say that I want you—it starts a fire inside of my soul unlike any other—and though it may burn at times, without it I am left cold.
It’s midday naps, showers together at 3:00 a.m. and the nights of passion that leave us so weak we can barely wake—but we do, simply because the promise of a new day is much sweeter when it is shared.
When I say that I want you—it’s because I want to share this life with you.
Because no one has ever touched and woken up the woman inside of me like you do—so today and tomorrow I will continue to fight for you.
But I hope you fight for me too.
I know that when I say that I want you—it is simply because I want all of you.
Each and every part.
Author: Kate Rose
Editor: Ashleigh Hitchcock