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June 11, 2019

Everything Grows when you Go Missing: a Letter to my Depression. ~ Ryan K. Russell


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Hey, I haven’t seen you for awhile…
Which means you’re coming back soon.
I hope you’ve enjoyed our time apart
As much as I have.
I think about you all the time though
And it scares me how I’ve grown
Accustomed to having you in my life.
I’ve been in love since you’ve gone
But I know only you and I will last
Yoga and meditation,
Yes that’s a new thing.
Maybe I’ll find the time for it
When you’re here.
I know you can be pretty demanding, but please.
I’ve been writing a lot also.
Different stuff than before
About life, love, and family.
Maybe that will ease you someday.
I don’t know if you can read at all.
I read in the gardens sometime;
Everything grows when you go missing.
I grow before you come to shrivel me up.
Food actually tastes good
When I can keep it down.
Why do you smell of stale tequila
And rotting meat?
Why do you leave just to
Come back?
Why are you the only one
Who comes back?
Okay well,
I’ll see you soon.


P.S. Don’t bring the razor blades this time. The scars are getting harder and harder to hide.


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