I think confused used to be my middle name.

I always imagined I’d have my sh*t together when I was 40, but I didn’t think I’d wait till so close to its approach to begin to make it so. 

 

When I was healing from chronic illness in 2011 I had these amazing Theta healing sessions via distance. They worked unbelievably well on a physical and spiritual level. But they failed to help me get going on my life’s purpose which was also a part of the process. I already knew my life’s purpose. I’d silently known it for twenty years, but with a finger in every pie and interest in just about everything, it became increasingly confusing. Despite this beautiful earth angel’s help, I danced around what I knew I wanted. She would get carried away with me on a new path, a whim, humour me and then try not to sound frustrated when on our next call I would be ready to try something else. 

 

It was only when I started to receive messages from my own angel team and guides that I reluctantly began nudging toward my North Star. They would not let me dodge or deny myself the chance at doing what I truly wanted anymore. Did they say I would be an amazing writer, with brilliant insight, flawless grammar, right on time and always on point? No, definitely no and not likely. But what they shared with me, in silence, in signs, in songs, to my soul family, in dreams and visions, is far greater in value. And it reflects what I know deep in my heart. That my writing affords the opportunity to help and heal. Sometimes myself, and sometimes others.  What could be more valuable than that?

 

As if all the confirmation and signposts I received over the past few years weren’t enough. Just to get me over the start line, whilst I was moving house recently and trying to get my blog up and running at the same time, one of my angels literally wrote me what I needed to do. I opened up a box to find the word ‘WRITE’ written in large bold caps on A4 paper! I was surprised by its presence in an old folder, as I sorted things out for the move.  It was written by my first love in 1996, now one of my beloved angels. It would make sense if I kept everything he ever gave or wrote me, but to the contrary, over the years I’d relinquished most of the handwritten personal notes and presents he gave me, in order to not be stuck in a long lost past. Although I knew he was always with me, frequently ‘showing up’ in my times of need. Long after leaving the earth plane in 1999, I discovered five years ago that he is one of my Guardian Angels.

 

Ever heard the saying that ‘the thing we find the hardest to do is the very thing that we must do’? This is something I thought sounded really improbable and yet this has been my truth. I was pushed and prodded and poked and reminded, and so very reluctant, and sometimes downright petrified- just to write what was in me. And, especially, share it! If that sounds extreme then search high and low for that same feeling as it is the one that will act as your compass. In my not so recent past, I was a professional dancer, for something that I loved to do so much, I always thought I should’ve felt more fulfilled.

 

Another amazing truth I’ve experienced consequently is that the more you do the thing you Love, that thing you so desire to do- call it life purpose, soul contract, or your ‘best life’- the more energy you have. Even when you are laying in bed typing a blog one-handed whilst breastfeeding, relinquishing precious sleep time!

 

So what is life like knowing I am always being guided? Magical. And so frequently miraculous. If you haven’t experienced a taste of this magic, can’t imagine or feel this deeply intuited guidance and connection. I beseech you to deepen your connection to the other side. As well as what is inside of you. To your loved ones gone before you and others that Love you, waiting for permission to lead you places unthought of, and show you things once unimaginable. To the fire inside of you which your beloveds desire to help you bring forth. As part of all of our journeys.