Letting go…again

This feeling is eerily familiar

(will it be the last time?)

It lingers behind my ribs

And you live rent free in my head

“Everything reminds me of her”

Elliot surely wrote that song for this

Why do I continue to try?

(abandon myself to catch your eye)

As expected, you shut me out

(then distance yourself)

Because sometimes:

you’re here, and we laugh

but then you’re gone

Again

But I just creep back in

(without hesitation)

I feel nothing I’m “supposed to” feel:

No resentment

No remorse

Just love

Can I stay here, putting myself on ice for you?

Frozen

Missing what could be meant for me

If I were to face the truth

Do I really have to declare this once again?

“I’m letting you go”

I surrender bc I know I can’t win…

But it’s not a game

More like a black hole

“I no longer have any attachment to you.”

(other than our entangled souls)