To my sweet baby loves,

I’m sorry I’m not able to be as present with you as I would like.

I love you

I’m sorry that the hardest time in my life comes during the most carefree time of yours.

I love you

I’m sorry I don’t laugh, and sing, and play with you every day like I wish I could.

I love you

I’m sorry I can’t just “let it go,”—I simply don’t know how yet, but I promise you I’m trying, hard.

I love you

I’ve never struggled so greatly, given so much, and felt so lost…ever.

I love you

Thank you for loving me unconditionally, for bringing light into every corner of darkness, and for challenging me to face my fears.

I love you

Thank you for embracing me when I cry, for holding my face when you fall asleep, and for smiling at me every single morning when you wake up.

I love you

Thank you for believing in me, for making it worth it, and for making me feel worthy.

I love you

Above all, I want you to know that I adore you beyond measure, I cherish you beyond words, and none of this is your fault.

I love you…always and forever.

Mom

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