You made me feel soft, like a petal from a light pink rose

Your warm breath in the nook of my neck, setting my goosebumps ablaze

The sweet hum from your chest as you sang and we swayed in the kitchen

You made me feel safe, like your arms could lift more than the bag of dog food you threw over your shoulder

My fears held with so much care you had to pay extra for the fragile sticker on the package

Our laughter so connected that I started believing in divine timing

I dove in, you let me

You let me cherish the feel of your strong body wrapped around mine

You let me glow under your attention like a wolf in the moonlight

You let me rest and thaw from your body heat

Diving deep into me, I let you see

I let you see the deep breaths I take when my martyr mask starts slipping

I let you see the tears running down my face when my support beams give out

I let you hear the sobs that the shower cannot cover

I dove too deep

I forgot how to breathe and thought you would pull me up for air

You left so fast, the whiplash brought out the loudest gasp

My mind tried to convince me that none of it happened at all, that you would be back with a life vest

I’ve met the dark night of the soul

I’ve ran long miles until my shoes gave up

I learned how to take bigger breaths

I let go of the boulder that was holding me under

And now I can close my eyes and float on my back

Now I can dive into me

Now I can see