“Your current safe boundaries were once unknown frontiers.” ~ Unknown
Isn’t this true? When young, we are eager to please and our boundaries begin and end with our parents. Then we grow up and life shows us horizons and cliffs. We learn to jump, fly, climb and fall.
If we are lucky, we learn to get up.
As I have written I fall in love with ease and am baffled why for some it is so hard. I know no boundaries there. But as quick as I fall, I get up even quicker.
Sure I may cry some. I may hurt. There is always loss. But the gain is always more.
This year my life has shown me boundaries I did not know I had and some of these I have only begun to see while others I know remain in the realm of unknown mystery.
And unknown works for me sometimes. Sometimes simply knowing there is the unknown is enough.
I quit smoking after 39 years. I lost over 30 pounds and have about 15 to go. I have come close to deep love by paddling along the shore of intense infatuation. I have given my desire wings that have yet to take flight.
I keep going.
I am learning about boundaries as I explore new friends and maintain the old. I am learning trust demands all and takes all and gives all. I am learning obedience to something beyond my higher power. I am learning to give without asking why as I learn how. I am learning.
In yoga I say it is about how I engage.
Today I engage life fully, with my whole heart, mind and body. Today I balance on a ledge that paints hope in another’s heart in hope it can hold mine. Today I will learn to sing what need wants so my desire can soar. Today my edges are softer than last year and my heart is stronger and my needs are clearer.
Today I can fold grace into the moon and know the pull moves oceans and makes hurricanes. Today I also know the calm that comes after the trees dance out of the ground and land in windows. Today I know what I want and want to go get it. Today holds me because of how I let go of yesterday.
Today I can stand in my light and hug my darkness for I know the difference lives in how they are the same.
Today I am not afraid.
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Editor: Catherine Monkman
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