This is the year of looking our fears square in the eye without running away—this is the moment of no escape.
It’s time you sit with your fears. Feel the pain. Let it pin you to the wall but not paralyze you. Let it break you open but not into pieces. Let it shake your ground but not your core.
The universe will never give us anything we are not ready to deal with so if you’re finding yourself face to face with death and pain and f*cked up, nothing-will-ever-be-the-same, gut wrenching, earth shattering loss—congratulations. You’re ready.
We might not want all of his pain but from time to time we need awful situations to surface—it’s how we remember what it feels to be alive. It’s how we’re pulled from the drowsiness of regular, human, “is this really all there is?” type of living. It’s how we grow and reach our full potential.
We won’t know how to love until we’ve had everything fall apart.
It’s time we stop wishing for a life where comfort and happiness and butterflies and rainbows are a permanent state because it’s a grand illusion—there is no permanent state.
The ground beneath us will always shake.
Sometimes there is happiness and peace and sometimes there is sadness and despair—clinging to one side is what pains us the most because it’s the biggest deceit of all.
We use hope to avoid looking at our scars and through that, we trick ourselves out of the present moment. We miss out on the feeling of being broken open by life every time we choose to numb our pain and we’ll spend the rest of our days trying to hide it it or fix it.
We write and drink and stay busy and talk and work and do yoga and read books and we tell ourselves we’re healing when all we’ve done is run away—everything can be an escape if we try hard enough.
You need this and one day, you’ll be grateful.
Remember that nothing is permanent.
Let yourself fall apart and you’ll see that there is more beauty in the in-between than you could have ever imagined.
Yes, there is death and loss and yes, it’s exhausting to live with this pain but we will not give up.
It’s time to stop running.
It’s time to step into the fire.
Author: Rachel Brathen
Editor: Katarina Tavčar
Photo: Author’s own