May 26, 2015

Sobriety: How Giving up Drinking Changed my Life.


Giving up drinking has been the single biggest catalyst for positive change in my life.

I have just clocked over three months without alcohol and I have not looked back. I am not advocating everyone should give up drinking, but it is certainly a good idea to rethink the frequency and quantity of how much we all drink.

Before I quit drinking, I was drinking everyday.

I didn’t think I had a real problem, I knew I could stop if I wanted to. I guess now I am just proving to myself that my will is strong, overcoming addiction is all about the power of our will and mind.

Once I had made up my mind that alcohol was not working for me anymore, I stopped, just like that. And you can too if you want to.

I come from a long line of alcoholics. My dad was of Latvian descent, which basically equates to being a frequent social drinker. My maternal Grandfather actually died at 45-years-old from cirrhosis of the liver, basically from drinking too much. My Mum also drank alcohol everyday.

Neither of my parents would get really drunk or anything like that, they liked to have between two to four drinks daily, starting around 5:00 p.m.

Most people drink like that right?

Before I decided to stop drinking, I started to question if I had a drinking problem. I came across this website called “Hello Sunday Morning” which encourages people to rethink their relationship with alcohol.

It caught my attention and I decided to sign up. I started to do some online quizzes and was surprised by my results. Most of them harshly announced that my drinking habits were dangerous, causing harm and that I was classified as a Dependent Alcoholic.

Yikes! I didn’t think it was that bad! But really, all that daily drinking and weekend binging with my friends was taking its toll and having more serious consequences than I realized.

Only now that I have removed alcohol from my system, can I see how much it really was affecting my health and mentality in a negative way.

Here are examples of how I felt when I was in full swing drinking mode:

1. I was often tired and lethargic. My energy levels were often zapped. I would buzz like crazy when I was drinking but then suffer a crash over the next few days.

2. I would always sleep in and feel quite lazy. I hardly ever woke before my alarm and my snooze button was nearly worn out.

3. I felt forgetful. I would forget simple words frequently, forgetting people’s names and simple nouns would just not roll off my tongue, as they should. My short and long term memory seemed to fail me frequently and I would forget large chunks of time.

Perhaps a consequence of grief too, but drinking made it worse.

4. I was depressed. I really was pretty flat and drinking exacerbated these negative emotions. Crying and mood swings were a weekly occurrence, if not daily.

5. I was in grieving mode and used alcohol to stop my over thinking mind. Drinking enabled me to temporarily remove myself from my reality, it worked a little too effectively.

Unfortunately, reality would seem even worse the next morning as I woke with a pounding head, dry mouth and often the desire to vomit. My lonely and sad reality felt even worse when I remembered the stupid things I had done when I had over-consumed from the night before.

Embarrassment and shame didn’t help my dry retching either.

6. I was quite anti-social, or mono-social. Most of my social time was spent in pubs, sitting around for hours on end wasting time drinking, talking rubbish to other drunks. Because I felt unmotivated, sometimes I would cancel dates with friends, because I just didn’t feel like doing anything adventurous.

7. I would frequently experience what I like to call “fuzzy brain.” I would feel blurry, indecisive and just couldn’t see things clearly.

There are many other ways to describe how I felt when I was drinking daily, it is only now that I don’t drink do I realize how it was affecting me. I got pretty used to these below average physical outcomes from using alcohol frequently.

What is a concern, I don’t even think I was drinking excessively. I could have gone harder! I know plenty of other people that were drinking far more than I was.

For me personally, stopping drinking has encouraged me to make many monumental changes in my life. It has enabled me to think more clearly, face my reality with confidence and a sharp mind.

My eyes are bright white and crystal blue, no more blood shot redness dulling their appearance.

I have the confidence now to face my fears and challenges and I am being proactive in dealing with my problems.

Drinking was a way to cloud my judgement, remove myself from my reality and obliterate the facts and sadness, but only temporarily. Nothing was being solved or overcome when I was drinking heavily. It only served to put me in unsavory situations and act in ways which are regrettable.

Alcohol is responsible for many problems in our society—drunk driving, domestic violence, poor family role modeling and failing personal health.

I know drinking can be fun and social, but I realize now in only three months of being sober, that I don’t need to drink alcohol to have a good time.

In fact, I have found the complete opposite, removing alcohol has led me to having the time of my life.

Here are some examples of how I feel now that I don’t drink:

1. I am much happier. My moods are more even keel and I am nowhere near the level of depressed I was before. I feel brighter, far more optimistic and upbeat about my life and my future.

2. I am sleeping much better. I wake early, sometimes at 4:30 a.m. I am so inspired to write lately, that I can’t even sleep! I call it my creative flow—every artist will tell you what that feels like, incredible! Like I am channelling some amazing out of this world energy.

3. I am much more interesting. I do much more with my time now. I have been travelling lots and going away on weekend camping trips. I go out to movies more and meet my friends for activities that don’t involve alcohol, like game nights and beach outings.

4. I have become a writer, photographer and a blogger. I have started my “Live your Truth” blog where I have written over 30 articles, on average 1500 words each. Needless to say I have been busy and have plenty to write about.

I have recently bought myself a new DSLR Nikon D5300 and will hopefully be capturing some amazing images.

Developing and pursuing these new passions have brought me a lot of joy. Taking action on my dreams has also made me realize what I want to do—encourage others to also follow their passions and live their dreams. I aim to lead by example.

5. I feel smarter. Literally my brain feels better and I can now string intelligent sentences together, with big words and everything! I don’t forget words or names as much as I used to. I can think more quickly, now that my brain synapses aren’t flooded with ethanol!

6. I have more money to spend on things that bring joy and happiness to my life. I have been buying lots of new things to enhance my life, like a new computer and camera, but I think I would have blown this money on booze quite easily over the last three months.

So overall, giving up drinking has enabled me to make some amazing changes.

Eliminating alcohol has been the biggest catalyst for amazing and uplifting changes in my life.

I hope that my sobriety and positive results have inspired you to think about what drinking is doing for you in your life.

Sobriety is not necessarily for everyone, maybe moderation is more your thing?

Now that I have experienced the many benefits of life without alcohol, I don’t feel the need to return to my daily drinking and obliterating habits from the past.

The past can stay where it belongs, I plan to move forward into my exciting future, full of adventure, hope, positivity and possibility.

I hope you can continue to join me on my journey.

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Relephant read:

Six Gifts of Clarity I Found in Sobriety.


Author: Anita Ozolins

Editor: Ashleigh Hitchcock

Photo: courtesy of the author

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