Most of the time we turn blind for the sake of love even if it was anything but true. I should have known that you were my unbecoming since while I was busy thinking about losing you, I should’ve been worried about losing myself. At the end of it all, I became my worst nightmare and it was all because I wanted to be the one thing you loved the most despite being the one I hate the most. But what can I say? At that time these are the only things I know:

“I’m in love you and that’s it.
I will only ever love a person if it’s you and that’s it.
I don’t think I’ll ever be ready to tell you about it.
So even if I don’t want to, I’ll have to keep it.”

I knew I was a fool. You were anything but good for me. But why can’t I bring myself to let you go when I know that you’ll tear me apart piece by piece? Maybe I was just waiting for you to realize that every time you hold my hand, it was my heart that’s on your palm. And I waited long enough to know that you’ll never feel the same way as I do. But of course, the idea of my love being unrequited hurts me but the idea of giving up on you hurts me more that it suffocates me. What’s more is that you won’t be able to stop a beating heart even if it beats for the wrong person. You could only ask that theirs will beat for the same reason as yours.

I thought you were my happy ending story, turns out you were just the bookmark that was keeping me from the future pages where true love I can see. Right now, all I can wish for is to turn back time. After all, you were just someone in disguise, all your actions were done out of spite. You took me to a whole new world but it was anything but a wonderland. I can only dream that in another lifetime you’ll choose me. I can only dream that in another lifetime, it’ll be me in your arms and the reason for your beating heart.