Relaxed is a state of mind

I don’t feel much.

I call out to the heavens

For peace of mind,

Calmness, Serenity—

A sense of Ease.

I feel tied down by my own mind,

Tossing this way and that

Creating scenarios in me

That may never happen.

Ravaging me like a shipwreck at sea

Enveloping me in dis-ease

And Discontent.

I long for the day

I can sit and breathe

And remember

I am all I’ll ever need to be.

I am enough

I have what I need.

I don’t need a plan

I don’t need an exit strategy.

I need to smile and laugh,

To have fun.

I need to play and exist while not locked

Behind the bars of my own

Private Prison.

I want to be a part of the fun

They are having,

The freedom they are feeling.

I want to find a place I fit

Among the masses.

I want to be seen, but instead

I hide behind the curtain,

Peeking out

Like a shy little school girl or

I act like a biker in a black leather jacket and a cig

Too cool to care.

I long to be unencumbered by Fear.

Free to be me

And only me.

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