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If you give away your power, there will always be someone there to take it.
Over the past few years, I’ve been working on myself. I’ve been diving deep and doing a lot of digging around in my deep psyche and subconscious. And I’ve come to one conclusion: I’m not here to be your b*tch.
I have journeyed to my own personal underworld and come face-to-face with my most deeply held fears. I have identified my own negative and limiting beliefs and faced the harsh truth of my lack of self-love and self-worth. I reopened all of the old wounds and scrubbed them clean. It hasn’t been fun or easy.
It’s been messy. Really messy.
My thing, formally, is astrology-specific life and energy coaching through the tool of astrology.
I see the “story” that I have carried echoed plainly in the symbols of my natal chart.
Capricorn expresses through my seventh house of intimate relationships—the area of life that energy comes through. Its ruler, Saturn (the “ambassador” of Capricorn) sits on top of my Venus in my first house, Cancer (Saturn’s exact opposite energy). Venus represents resources and relationships, but by way of our value of ourselves, our self-worth, and self-love.
That signature in my natal chart means “other,” and specifically, an intimate partner who is sitting on top of my self-worth.
In life, it meant that I had some serious lessons to learn about boundaries and staying in my power, and that meant one thing: an epic battle with Saturn for my self-worth and inner authority—the battle to reclaim my throne.
Here’s the scenario: it’s really about reclaiming one’s power and inner authority.
Saturn on Venus in Cancer and the first house show that self-worth is debilitated, and this is likely from some kind of early experience of being limited or restricted by an authority (resulting in devaluation of self).
This means that expression of the self has then been masked, repressed, suppressed, restricted, or in some way altered to fit in with this authority that caused the experience of the authentic self’s expression to be “wrong.”
With the self-worth debilitated and carrying the idea that there is something inherently wrong with the self, one puts the “authority” (Saturn) outside of oneself, which leads to dependence on others for security.
In this case, Saturn’s sign, Capricorn, representing this security, is ruling the seventh house of intimate relationships in the natal chart—the power is given away to the significant other in exchange for the lacking sense of security.
Now, consider all of this in the context of the law of attraction.
It goes like this: if we are willing to give away our power, there will always be someone there to take it.
We get on the right side of Saturn with maturity.
In the native’s younger years, Saturn, in this case, can easily show up as Venus’ abuser. The authority figure holds the self-worth hostage, but as long as the self-worth is debilitated and authority is seen as something that only exists outside of oneself, there’s no way out of the cycle.
This is Saturn as represented in the Devil card in the tarot, calling our attention to how we imprison ourselves (ultimately by the limiting or negative beliefs that we carry and of which we are unconscious).
But, now, consider Saturn in its role of teacher and how it is represented in the World card in the tarot—this is how we experience Saturn with maturity.
The World is the card of completion, showing the reaping of the happy harvest.
If this Venus does her work—evolving in consciousness to a place of self-worth, having healed so that she now values and loves herself and is no longer betraying herself and compromising her integrity—then she has taken back her power and knows her value.
She is her own authority. She knows, now, that if she is not continually claiming that place of power and authority and responsibility within herself, someone will take it. She realizes that if she doesn’t occupy her throne, there are all kinds of people who will be more than happy to walk in and set up their own rulership.
What is equally important is that she knows that when she does not occupy her throne, those are exactly the types of people she will attract.
She is not here to be anyone’s b*tch, and she never was.
But she had to learn the lesson in the depth and detail that she did because she has important work to do around self-worth and becoming her own authority.
Like the great Sumerian Inanna, she had to descend to her depths to be reborn whole unto herself and reclaim her throne as the unshakable sovereign ruler of her realm.
That’s the only reason Lord of Karma (Saturn) would be there over Venus in the first house/Cancer, causing forced growth and the need to fight for self-esteem and expression.
Here are some examples of archetypal energies and reclaiming feminine power and expression:
There is a deeper archetypal layer to this running throughout our myths, our religions, our cultures, and our collective consciousness.
The study of astrology leads to the study of mythology. What we might understand as Venus or Aphrodite today is quite the watered-down version from the not-to-be-f*cked-with ancient goddess energies.
As the Sumerian myth, “Inanna’s Descent,” teaches us—and this describes the astrological cycle of Venus’ retrograde, as Inanna was Venus’ predecessor—we cannot fully claim our power unless we’ve confronted the shadow self. We don’t stand in our power if we keep trying to disown the darker or maybe not-so-socially-acceptable parts of ourselves.
That betrays our truth and compromises our power.
And Inanna certainly wasn’t going to be someone’s b*tch. She journeyed to the underworld to confront her sister, who was the queen of the underworld (her shadow self), and in her compromised state, she was attacked by her sister and hung on meat hooks and left for dead.
Her handmaiden (higher self) saved her. But the underworld had rules, and before she would be allowed to leave, she had to choose someone to take her place. Upon finding out that her consort had taken over her throne and was not one bit interested in her well-being, she chose him and sent him to the underworld, reclaiming her throne and her sovereignty.
If we work with the negative and limiting beliefs we carry, we find the wounds where those beliefs were formed, which also mark the chinks in our armor where others can trick us into giving away our power.
Our armor is always our self-esteem and self-love. If we carry a negative belief about ourselves, like “too much,” “not worthy,” or “not lovable,” then there is a chink in that armor.
Now, we are “not enough” as we innately are; therefore, we look outside of ourselves for whatever that thing is we think we need. Unattended to, our shadow has turned into a larger-than-life monster. It has opened an access point that would allow someone else to invade our homeland and steal our throne.
Manipulation is part of human nature because fear is also part of human nature. We try to control what we fear. If we are fearful, we want power, which we think we will achieve by control, and fear is something we know so well that we can innately try to gain that control over another by playing on their fear.
We’ve seen this principle at work time and time again.
The Egyptian myth of Sekhmet.
Take the myth of the ancient Egyptian goddess, Sekhmet—the fierce lion-headed goddess.
She is primarily known as “The Destroyer” or even “The Scarlet Lady.” However, despite this reputation, she was widely worshiped in ancient Egypt as a compassionate, healing deity.
In the myth we know, Ra called on Sekhmet for her help because he had lost the respect and patronage of the people.
Author Nicki Scully says, “As she prowled the land, she saw needless human suffering. She saw how cosmic law was defiled. She loosed her wrath upon the people of Earth, and the ground was littered with spent and bleeding bodies. With her newly ignited taste for human blood, the carnage knew no bounds, and Ra grieved as he looked upon the waste laid by Sekhmet.”
There are two important details here:
1. There’s a warning about the consequences of rage going unchecked.
While anger and rage serve their purpose in helping us assert and protect ourselves, they can be extremely destructive.
2. This paints a picture of Ra calling on Sekhmet, a powerful goddess, to help him in his time of need.
She acts out of righteous rage after being asked for her help. Consider this powerful ancient feminine energy who holds within her both the compassionate healer archetype and the powerful female warrior archetype.
And now consider the idea we frequently encounter that women are not supposed to express anger—and for that matter, “big boys don’t cry” and “children should be seen and not heard.”
The next part of the story is that Ra resorts to “trickery” to end her rampage. He colors beer with mandrake root and pomegranate juice, so it looks like blood, and because she is extremely blood-thirsty, Sekhmet drinks it until intoxicated and turns into the more docile archetype of Hathor.
So in her all-powerful divinity, is she also this gullible?
Scully goes on to say, “This tale omits mention of Sekhmet’s boundless compassion, her exceptional healing gifts, her power, and her freedom.”
She adds, “The premise that Sekhmet’s rage can be tempered through intoxication and unconsciousness or sleep illustrates how the current worldwide paradigm needs changing. No longer can we afford to retreat into unconsciousness or have our freedom tricked out of us. Our personal demons are part of ourselves, and they, too, are divine.”
Ra, in fear of Sekhmet’s power, tricks her—by intoxication—into being more docile so he can control her.
Applying that to the idea of manipulation through fear, can you think of times in history where one group has held power over another group through this trickery of manipulating fear?
Do you see this dynamic in your personal history or of those around you?
If you choose to remain unconscious, not face your fears, limit your beliefs, and not shore up the armor of self-esteem, then you will fall victim to this sort of “trickery” and end up giving away your power, which means you’re giving away your freedom.
Do not betray yourself by looking outside of yourself for security, love, or validation.
Sekhmet was not here to be anyone’s b*tch, yet she was still manipulated into submission.
In other words, Saturn in astrology is about responsibility.
When we are young, we are not mature enough to be in our own authority—it is something we step into with time and experience. Then, with maturity, we come into a different relationship with Saturn—our natal chart—one of becoming our own authority.
This is the lesson Saturn teaches: we each must take responsibility for ourselves by stepping into our own inner authority.
Saturn in our chart reminds us that “authority” will always be in our lives. The question is, will that energy be moving through us, or will we experience it as coming down on us from the outside or through “the other”?
It is up to us as individuals to love and value ourselves to ensure there are no chinks in our armor and we are never tempted to believe that there is something outside of us that we must trade our integrity for.
We must become our own inner authority, seated solidly upon the thrones of our hearts as sovereign rulers of our realms. From this place at our center, we can then evaluate what beliefs we are aligned with and what beliefs do not ring true for us, based on our values.
From this place of self-worth and inner authority, we create the loving boundaries that protect all that we wish to nurture and grow.
It is only from this place upon the thrones of our hearts that we can say lovingly, in our full authority, “I am not here to be your b*tch.”
The best part is that once we are in that place, we will never have the need to say it, for we have completed the lessons required to attain “The World,” like in the Fool’s journey of the major arcana of the tarot.
We will simply live it, with every breath, every moment of every day, as naturally as the sun rises every morning and the moon illuminates the night sky.