If only you knew how hard it is to be someone with mental issues. It’s not easy for us to be able to trust someone completely, constantly suspecting others, constantly being over-reacting.

It’s all tiring. We never want it. It’s just because everything that has happened, the past, all the experiences, they never go away, continue to haunt and affect us mentally and physically.

It’s not that we want to do drama or overdo it but it just naturally affects us and we can’t stop it. If you’re thinking why don’t we try to heal? believe me I’m sure I’m not the only one who has tried various ways to heal the trauma.

I can understand sometimes why someone can shut themselves off or suddenly blast another for no apparent reason or suddenly walk away without giving any explanation.

I don’t want to blame them for reacting that way but because I know what it’s like to be them. The pain continues to whack and never goes away from the mind.

Maybe I’m the one that deserve to be blame? Maybe I deserve to be treated like that? Maybe they’re right and I’m wrong one, there’s no way someone would want me and all kinds of bad thoughts.

All these thoughts are so killing and difficult to get rid from the mind. Even sometimes, to share it with someone, it’s too much fear and anxiety that it will become a burden.

So much pain had been experienced and it was all so painful. It won’t be easy to be with someone who has mental issues unless you really have a firm intention to stay by their side.

They are complicated and you have to be prepared for all that. They really need trust, comfort and believe that you are not like the others, who have hurt them. You will be doubted many times and if you want the relationship to work then you really have to work hard to earn their trust.