So kings and queens, I want to share this story with you,…I have this one friend that I’ve known my whole life; recently I’ve discovered that sometimes she makes me feel bad about myself.. especially when I am not able to meet her expectations, she puts me down and when I try to do everything correctly, she gives little to no apppreciation, pointing out that one thing on my list that I still need to handle.
Don’t get me wrong she can be happy with me at times, but should I tell that I feel tired or emotionally exhausted she is often not supportive. Which makes me feel unconfortable in her presence, unease. So recently I took all the courage that I had and I confronted her, even though I was intimidated.

I asked her why she was so judgemental with me, why did she seem to comfort and praise others while she was almost indifferent to my successes and payed more attention to my failures.

She paused, took a deep breath and sighed, saying it is because of FEAR, she fear that my life will be a failure, that if I took a break, I won’t get back to it and if I made a mistake I won’t be able to correct it.

I said I understood, but told her that her fear was stopping me from getting ahead, as I really needed her support and needed her to believe in me, cause well, I’ve known her my whole life and her opinion really matters to me.

We talked for a long time about our state of mind, emotions and about our mutual expectations…

She promised to give me more space if I needed it, and no to be judgemental, moslty she promised to aknowledge my successes, even the smallest ones.

I was happy about that and felt encouraged to go on 😀

But,…
I thought I should share with you who this friend is, I think its important for you to know, since I’ve pulled you into this story you should also know all those who are involved; but if you have been paying attention you could easily guess who it is..

YEAHHH that’s RIGHT!!!!

That FRIEND is MEEE

And i will end this story with a question:
HOW HAVE YOU BEEN TREATING YOU?