Maybe for others, this pandemic is the worst situation ever. For me, everything happens for a reason. This situation is bad, yes but I can still see the bright side of it. This situation made me realize that in the end we know which people care about us.

Many vent to me, complaining that this situation makes them depressed, lonely and they find it difficult to meet the people they usually hang out with. Maybe those who usually work in the office, now have to work at home and be cooped up in a room that makes them almost crazy. Knowing when they are infected, then they are shunned by people, they feel isolated. For those who are married, they will meet every day almost 24/7 which makes both of them have to adjust things again because the pandemic makes them have to be cooped up in the house.

Then did all of that turn out so bad? Maybe yes, maybe no. It just depends on how you look at it. If you blame the circumstances and keep complaining that all this is bad, then things will get worse. But if you try to accept reality and try to take the bright side, at least I think you will get inner peace even though everything is messed up.

At least that’s what I face. If the situation is bad and I keep blaming the situation then my feelings, my emotions will all get worse, my energy and mind will be drained and it will affect everything I do in my reality. I would feel like everything I was doing was wrong, overthinking, and I was starting to go crazy.

But what’s the point of me doing that? by blaming the situation then everything will get better? then change my situation to be suddenly happier? no. Accept the situation and try to find the good side and please myself. That’s what I do. I’ve gone through a phase where I can’t accept reality and blame everything for making my situation worse and it’s not doing me any good. I became sickly, my mind became more messed up and my body became weak.

After a while I started to introspect, why do all these things? to satisfy myself? because in reality I’m not satisfied with doing that, blaming circumstances. Then I changed everything, I tried to be fairer to myself. I learned to accept the fact that in life I will not get everything I want and if I don’t love myself then I will be the one who will suffer for my journey.

At first it was not easy, but as time went on, every time I started to mess up, I started to put in my mind, life in this world is only temporary, do all you can, make yourself happy, make yourself happy and if you can then make happy everyone around you.

As I got older, I realized that all I wanted was peace. The times when I dragged my self for experience dangers of my youth, it’s all past, I’ve had too many good and bad experiences and it made me realize that every time I make a decision there will always be a consequence behind it.

Even though I already feel I made a good decision still, life is just a trial, eventually problems will arise again and I have to face other problems as a result of my decision. The more I complain about something, the more chaotic things will become and believe me, it will not give me peace. Letting go and learning to accept, it’s really not an easy thing, let alone lowering my ego and self-esteem.

After all that, I am now much happier and more at peace. Even though the world revolves with all its chaos, I realize that everything is only temporary, so it’s best to let go and learn to accept the fact that in life everything will have its trials.