It’s a sunny morning and I intend to visit the cemetery. When I left the house, from a distance I saw my relatives walking towards me. It seemed they knew that I was going there and when they were in front of me they said that they would be waiting for me at my home.

This is my annual routine, I never miss it. I decided to leave them and walked over there while they entered my house. I’ve always liked the atmosphere of the cemetery, calming and I don’t know, it’s just that every time I’m there, I find peace.

As usual I had to pay the cemetery’s annual contract and after I finished all the other things, in front of the grave I knelt down. Every time I do that, every time I close my eyes, all the memories that they and I have spent come back to my mind as if it all happened yesterday.

Still fresh in my memory the last days we spent together. I still clearly remember how she apologized for the other’s treatment to me. I never expected that the words would be her last words to me.

When I got to know her, I never had the slightest feeling of hatred for her. To me she is an amazing woman. She’s just an ordinary woman, but for me, I don’t know … my relationship with her is not even close, it’s just that every time we meet, she always respects me.

But for some reason, memories of her always remain in my heart. When she was alive, her life was not an easy life for her to live. She fought for her family and never once did I ever see her complain.

I think I admire her for her patience. Rarely have I seen a woman with such a level of patience as her. When life starts hitting us and taking us to complicated levels, sometimes it’s hard for us to be able to control our emotions.

I don’t know why, but this woman taught me a lot of valuable lessons. She never even lectured me or scolded me but all the feelings what she has, I can see and feel it through her actions.

To this day, whenever I want to blast them, the only thing holding me back from doing that is her last words. “Forgive them, they don’t know what they said and they did”.

Sometimes for me their mistakes are very unforgivable and it is difficult for me to forgive them, if only she had never said those words, I don’t know what would have happened.

Maybe it’s my way of showing that I actually love her and really appreciate her. She’s no longer exist but all the memories we once had, I know that it’s all her wish that become my responsibility now , a new burden that I couldn’t ignore.

Life is strange. Sometimes one thing can lead to another. Maybe not now, maybe years later we know the meaning. I never blamed her for giving me this duty. I guess she already knew from long ago that in the end I was going to help them and I had to help them. That’s what she wants, it’s just that years ago, I couldn’t figure it all out.