Was it Father’s Day yesterday?

When I read someone post about it and it hits me that it’s Father’s Day. What’s on my mind is how much I miss you, Dad.

The only person in this world and I have ever known who loves me the most sincerely, wholeheartedly and unconditionally is you.

The mental breakdown that I have made me forget a lot of moments in the past but surprisingly, only moments with you that I still remember to this day. I think it happened because only with you, I get that peace, comfort and sense of security.

Living life made me realize that in this world to find someone who is sincere to you is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand. They can say anything but in reality time will prove that in the end it’s all for their sake.

I can’t express how much I wish I could meet you again and do you know that to be able to dream of meeting you, it’s been a blessing for me even though you very rarely come into my dreams.

If only I had known that this was the last moment we were together, I would have spent the best of my time with you. After that day my world seemed to fall apart. I have no one to lean on anymore, someone who can support me, someone who loves me as much as you love me.

Sometimes I want to scream, I don’t want to be strong but I know it’s no use. You’re the only one who understands me the most. I guess we’re both weirdos so it’s hard for other people to understand us.

We can make them comfortable with us but they may not necessarily be able to give the same for us. You understand what I want to say, don’t you, Dad?

Never once did I not feel that I lost you. For me the day you left, it was the biggest blow of my life even though on the outside I looked completely normal and unaffected by it.

I really miss you, Dad. There are many things I want to share with you. Pray for me there so I can live the rest of my life strong. Pray for me that I will stay sane through all this. Pray for me so that I can finally find peace one day, just like when you were with me.